This is from Fr Doyle’s writings.
9 September 1916 – Mass at the Battle of the Somme
By cutting a piece out of the side of the trench I was just able to stand in front of my tiny altar, a biscuit box supported on two German bayonets. God’s angels, no doubt, were hovering overhead, but so were the shells, hundreds of them, and I was a little afraid that when the earth shook with the crash of the guns, the chalice might be overturned. Round about me on every side was the biggest congregation I ever had: behind the altar, on either side, and in front, row after row, sometimes crowding one upon the other, but all quiet and silent, as if they were straining their ears to catch every syllable of that tremendous act of Sacrifice — but every man was dead! Some had lain there for a week and were foul and horrible to look at, with faces black and green. Others had only just fallen, and seemed rather sleeping than dead, but there they lay, for none had time to bury them, brave fellows, every one, friend and foe alike, while I held in my unworthy hands the God of Battles, their Creator and their Judge, and prayed Him to give rest to their souls. Surely that Mass for the Dead, in the midst of, and surrounded by the dead, was an experience not easily to be forgotten.
Poem of John Henry Cardinal Newman
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I went to sleep; and now I am refresh’d, |
A strange refreshment: for I feel in me |
An inexpressive lightness, and a sense {332} |
Of freedom, as I were at length myself, |
And ne’er had been before. How still it is! |
I hear no more the busy beat of time, |
No, nor my fluttering breath, nor struggling pulse; |
Nor does one moment differ from the next. |
I had a dream; yes:—some one softly said |
“He’s gone;” and then a sigh went round the |
room. |
And then I surely heard a priestly voice |
Cry “Subvenite;” and they knelt in prayer. |
I seem to hear him still; but thin and low, |
And fainter and more faint the accents come, |
As at an ever-widening interval. |
Ah ! whence is this? What is this severance? |
This silence pours a solitariness |
Into the very essence of my soul; |
And the deep rest, so soothing and so sweet, |
Hath something too of sternness and of pain. |
For it drives back my thoughts upon their spring |
By a strange introversion, and perforce |
I now begin to feed upon myself, |
Because I have nought else to feed upon.— |
Am I alive or dead? I am not dead, {333} |
But in the body still; for I possess |
A sort of confidence which clings to me, |
That each particular organ holds its place |
As heretofore, combining with the rest |
Into one symmetry, that wraps me round, |
And makes me man; and surely I could move, |
Did I but will it, every part of me. |
And yet I cannot to my sense bring home |
By very trial, that I have the power. |
‘Tis strange; I cannot stir a hand or foot, |
I cannot make my fingers or my lips |
By mutual pressure witness each to each, |
Nor by the eyelid’s instantaneous stroke |
Assure myself I have a body still. |
Nor do I know my very attitude, |
Nor if I stand, or lie, or sit, or kneel. |
So much I know, not knowing how I know, |
That the vast universe, where I have dwelt, |
Is quitting me, or I am quitting it. |
Or I or it is rushing on the wings |
Of light or lightning on an onward course, |
And we e’en now are million miles apart. |
Yet … is this peremptory severance {334} |
Wrought out in lengthening measurements of space |
Which grow and multiply by speed and time? |
Or am I traversing infinity |
By endless subdivision, hurrying back |
From finite towards infinitesimal, |
Thus dying out of the expansive world? |
Another marvel: some one has me fast |
Within his ample palm; ’tis not a grasp |
Such as they use on earth, but all around |
Over the surface of my subtle being, |
As though I were a sphere, and capable |
To be accosted thus, a uniform |
And gentle pressure tells me I am not |
Self-moving, but borne forward on my way. |
And hark! I hear a singing; yet in sooth |
I cannot of that music rightly say |
Whether I hear, or touch, or taste the tones. |
Oh, what a heart-subduing melody! |
Angel |
My work is done, |
My task is o’er, |
And so I come, {335} |
Taking it home, |
For the crown is won, |
Alleluia, |
For evermore. |
My Father gave |
In charge to me |
This child of earth |
E’en from its birth, |
To serve and save, |
Alleluia, |
And saved is he. |
This child of clay |
To me was given, |
To rear and train |
By sorrow and pain |
In the narrow way, |
Alleluia, |
From earth to heaven. |
Soul |
It is a member of that family |
Of wondrous beings, who, ere the worlds were |
made, {336} |
Millions of ages back, have stood around |
The throne of God:—he never has known sin |
But through those cycles all but infinite, |
Has had a strong and pure celestial life, |
And bore to gaze on the unveil’d face of God, |
And drank from the everlasting Fount of truth, |
And served Him with a keen ecstatic love. |
Hark! he begins again. |
Angel |
O Lord, how wonderful in depth and height, |
But most in man, how wonderful Thou art! |
With what a love, what soft persuasive might |
Victorious o’er the stubborn fleshly heart, |
Thy tale complete of saints Thou dost provide, |
To fill the thrones which angels lost through pride! |
He lay a grovelling babe upon the ground, |
Polluted in the blood of his first sire, |
With his whole essence shatter’d and unsound, |
And coil’d around his heart a demon dire, |
Which was not of his nature, but had skill |
To bind and form his op’ning mind to ill. {337} |
Then was I sent from heaven to set right |
The balance in his soul of truth and sin, |
And I have waged a long relentless fight, |
Resolved that death-environ’d spirit to win, |
Which from its fallen state, when all was lost, |
Had been repurchased at so dread a cost. |
Oh, what a shifting parti-colour’d scene |
Of hope and fear, of triumph and dismay, |
Of recklessness and penitence, has been |
The history of that dreary, life-long fray! |
And oh, the grace to nerve him and to lead, |
How patient, prompt, and lavish at his need! |
O man, strange composite of heaven and earth! |
Majesty dwarf’d to baseness! fragrant flower |
Running to poisonous seed! and seeming worth |
Cloking corruption! weakness mastering power! |
Who never art so near to crime and shame, |
As when thou hast achieved some deed of name;— |
How should ethereal natures comprehend |
A thing made up of spirit and of clay, |
Were we not task’d to nurse it and to tend, {338} |
Link’d one to one throughout its mortal day? |
More than the Seraph in his height of place, |
The Angel-guardian knows and loves the ran- |
som’d race. |
Soul |
Now know I surely that I am at length |
Out of the body; had I part with earth, |
I never could have drunk those accents in, |
And not have worshipp’d as a god the voice |
That was so musical; but now I am |
So whole of heart, so calm, so self-possess’d, |
With such a full content, and with a sense |
So apprehensive and discriminant, |
As no temptation can intoxicate. |
Nor have I even terror at the thought |
That I am clasp’d by such a saintliness. |
Angel |
All praise to Him, at whose sublime decree |
The last are first, the first become the last; |
By whom the suppliant prisoner is set free, |
By whom proud first-borns from their thrones |
are cast; {339} |
Who raises Mary to be Queen of heaven, |
While Lucifer is left, condemn’d and unforgiven. |
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I will address him. Mighty one, my Lord, |
My Guardian Spirit, all hail! |
Angel |
All hail, my child! |
My child and brother, hail! what wouldest thou? |
Soul |
I would have nothing but to speak with thee |
For speaking’s sake. I wish to hold with thee |
Conscious communion; though I fain would know |
A maze of things, were it but meet to ask, |
And not a curiousness. |
Angel |
You cannot now |
Cherish a wish which ought not to be wish’d. |
Soul |
Then I will speak. I ever had believed |
That on the moment when the struggling soul {340} |
Quitted its mortal case, forthwith it fell |
Under the awful Presence of its God, |
There to be judged and sent to its own place. |
What lets me now from going to my Lord? |
Angel |
Thou art not let; but with extremest speed |
Art hurrying to the Just and Holy Judge: |
For scarcely art thou disembodied yet. |
Divide a moment, as men measure time, |
Into its million-million-millionth part, |
Yet even less than that the interval |
Since thou didst leave the body; and the priest |
Cried “Subvenite,” and they fell to prayer; |
Nay, scarcely yet have they begun to pray. |
For spirits and men by different standards mete |
The less and greater in the flow of time. |
By sun and moon, primeval ordinances— |
By stars which rise and set harmoniously— |
By the recurring seasons, and the swing, |
This way and that, of the suspended rod |
Precise and punctual, men divide the hours, |
Equal, continuous, for their common use. {341} |
Not so with us in the immaterial world; |
But intervals in their succession |
Are measured by the living thought alone, |
And grow or wane with its intensity. |
And time is not a common property; |
But what is long is short, and swift is slow, |
And near is distant, as received and grasp’d |
By this mind and by that, and every one |
Is standard of his own chronology. |
And memory lacks its natural resting-points |
Of years, and centuries, and periods. |
It is thy very energy of thought |
Which keeps thee from thy God. |
Soul |
Dear Angel, say, |
Why have I now no fear at meeting Him? |
Along my earthly life, the thought of death |
And judgment was to me most terrible. |
I had it aye before me, and I saw |
The Judge severe e’en in the Crucifix. |
Now that the hour is come, my fear is fled; |
And at this balance of my destiny, |
Now close upon me, I can forward look |
With a serenest joy. {342} |
Angel |
It is because |
Then thou didst fear, that now thou dost not fear, |
Thou hast forestall’d the agony, and so |
For thee the bitterness of death is past. |
Also, because already in thy soul |
The judgment is begun. That day of doom, |
One and the same for the collected world,— |
That solemn consummation for all flesh, |
Is, in the case of each, anticipate |
Upon his death; and, as the last great day |
In the particular judgment is rehearsed, |
So now, too, ere thou comest to the Throne, |
A presage falls upon thee, as a ray |
Straight from the Judge, expressive of thy lot. |
That calm and joy uprising in thy soul |
Is first-fruit to thee of thy recompense, |
And heaven begun. |
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But hark! upon my sense |
Comes a fierce hubbub, which would make me fear |
Could I be frighted. {343} |
Angel |
We are now arrived |
Close on the judgment-court; that sullen howl |
Is from the demons who assemble there. |
It is the middle region, where of old |
Satan appeared among the sons of God, |
To cast his jibes and scoffs at holy Job. |
So now his legions throng the vestibule, |
Hungry and wild, to claim their property, |
And gather souls for hell. Hist to their cry. |
Soul |
How sour and how uncouth a dissonance! |
Demons |
Low-born clods |
Of brute earth |
They aspire |
To become gods, |
By a new birth, |
And an extra grace, |
And a score of merits, |
As if aught |
Could stand in place {344} |
Of the high thought, |
And the glance of fire |
Of the great spirits, |
The powers blest, |
The lords by right, |
The primal owners, |
Of the proud dwelling |
And realm of light,— |
Dispossess’d, |
Aside thrust, |
Chuck’d down |
By the sheer might |
Of a despot’s will, |
Of a tyrant’s frown, |
Who after expelling |
Their hosts, gave, |
Triumphant still, |
And still unjust, |
Each forfeit crown |
To psalm-droners, |
And canting groaners, |
To every slave, |
And pious cheat, |
And crawling knave, {345} |
Who lick’d the dust |
Under his feet. |
Angel |
It is the restless panting of their being; |
Like beasts of prey, who, caged within their bars, |
In a deep hideous purring have their life, |
And an incessant pacing to and fro. |
Demons |
The mind bold |
And independent, |
The purpose free, |
So we are told, |
Must not think |
To have the ascendant |
What’s a saint? |
One whose breath |
Doth the air taint |
Before his death; |
A bundle of bones, |
Which fools adore, |
Ha! ha! |
When life is o’er; {346} |
Which rattle and stink, |
E’en in the flesh. |
We cry his pardon! |
No flesh hath he; |
Ha! ha! |
For it hath died, |
‘Tis crucified |
Day by day, |
Afresh, afresh, |
Ha! ha! |
That holy clay, |
Ha! ha! |
This gains guerdon, |
So priestlings prate, |
Ha! ha! |
Before the Judge, |
And pleads and atones |
For spite and grudge, |
And bigot mood, |
And envy and hate, |
And greed of blood. {347} |
Soul |
How impotent they are! and yet on earth |
They have repute for wondrous power and skill; |
And books describe, how that the very face |
Of the Evil One, if seen, would have a force |
Even to freeze the blood, and choke the life |
Of him who saw it. |
Angel |
In thy trial-state |
Thou hadst a traitor nestling close at home, |
Connatural, who with the powers of hell |
Was leagued, and of thy senses kept the keys, |
And to that deadliest foe unlock’d thy heart. |
And therefore is it, in respect of man, |
Those fallen ones show so majestical. |
But, when some child of grace, Angel or Saint, |
Pure and upright in his integrity |
Of nature, meets the demons on their raid, |
They scud away as cowards from the fight. |
Nay, oft hath holy hermit in his cell, |
Not yet disburden’d of mortality, |
Mock’d at their threats and warlike overtures; {348} |
Or, dying, when they swarm’d, like flies, around, |
Defied them, and departed to his Judge. |
Demons |
Virtue and vice, |
A knave’s pretence, |
‘Tis all the same; |
Ha! ha! |
Dread of hell-fire, |
Of the venomous flame, |
A coward’s plea. |
Give him his price, |
Saint though he be, |
Ha! ha! |
From shrewd good sense |
He’ll slave for hire |
Ha! ha! |
And does but aspire |
To the heaven above |
With sordid aim, |
And not from love. |
Ha! ha! |
Soul |
I see not those false spirits; shall I see {349} |
My dearest Master, when I reach His Throne? |
Or hear, at least, His awful judgment-word |
With personal intonation, as I now |
Hear thee, not see thee, Angel? Hitherto |
All has been darkness since I left the earth; |
Shall I remain thus sight-bereft all through |
My penance-time? If so, how comes it then |
That I have hearing still, and taste, and touch, |
Yet not a glimmer of that princely sense |
Which binds ideas in one, and makes them live? |
Angel |
Nor touch, nor taste, nor hearing hast thou |
now; |
Thou livest in a world of signs and types, |
The presentations of most holy truths, |
Living and strong, which now encompass thee. |
A disembodied soul, thou hast by right |
No converse with aught else beside thyself; |
But, lest so stern a solitude should load |
And break thy being, in mercy are vouchsafed |
Some lower measures of perception, |
Which seem to thee, as though through channels |
brought, {350} |
Through ear, or nerves, or palate, which are |
gone. |
And thou art wrapp’d and swathed around in |
dreams, |
Dreams that are true, yet enigmatical; |
For the belongings of thy present state, |
Save through such symbols, come not home to |
thee. |
And thus thou tell’st of space, and time, and |
size, |
Of fragrant, solid, bitter, musical, |
Of fire, and of refreshment after fire; |
As (let me use similitude of earth, |
To aid thee in the knowledge thou dost ask)— |
As ice which blisters may be said to burn. |
Nor hast thou now extension, with its parts |
Correlative,—long habit cozens thee,— |
Nor power to move thyself, nor limbs to move. |
Hast thou not heard of those, who after loss |
Of hand or foot, still cried that they had pains |
In hand or foot, as though they had it still? |
So is it now with thee, who hast not lost |
Thy hand or foot, but all which made up man. |
So will it be, until the joyous day {351} |
Of resurrection, when thou wilt regain |
All thou hast lost, new-made and glorified. |
How, even now, the consummated Saints |
See God in heaven, I may not explicate; |
Meanwhile, let it suffice thee to possess |
Such means of converse as are granted thee, |
Though, till that Beatific Vision, thou art blind; |
For e’en thy purgatory, which comes like fire, |
Is fire without its light. |
Soul |
His will be done! |
I am not worthy e’er to see again |
The face of day; far less His countenance, |
Who is the very sun. Natheless in life, |
When I looked forward to my purgatory, |
It ever was my solace to believe, |
That, ere I plunged amid the avenging flame, |
I had one sight of Him to strengthen me. |
Angel |
Nor rash nor vain is that presentiment; |
Yes,—for one moment thou shalt see thy Lord. |
Thus will it be: what time thou art arraign’d {352} |
Before the dread tribunal, and thy lot |
Is cast for ever, should it be to sit |
On His right hand among His pure elect, |
Then sight, or that which to the soul is sight, |
As by a lightning-flash, will come to thee, |
And thou shalt see, amid the dark profound, |
Whom thy soul loveth, and would fain approach,— |
One moment; but thou knowest not, my child, |
What thou dost ask: that sight of the Most Fair |
Will gladden thee, but it will pierce thee too. |
Soul |
Thou speakest darkly, Angel; and an awe |
Falls on me, and a fear lest I be rash. |
Angel |
There was a mortal, who is now above |
In the mid glory: he, when near to die, |
Was given communion with the Crucified,— |
Such, that the Master’s very wounds were stamp’d |
Upon his flesh; and, from the agony |
Which thrill’d through body and soul in that |
embrace, |
Learn that the flame of the Everlasting Love |
Doth burn ere it transform … {353} |
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Thy judgment now is near, for we are come |
Into the veilèd presence of our God. |
Soul |
I hear the voices that I left on earth. {365} |
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It is the voice of friends around thy bed, |
Who say the “Subvenite” with the priest. |
Hither the echoes come; before the Throne |
Stands the great Angel of the Agony, |
The same who strengthen’d Him, what time He |
knelt |
Lone in that garden shade, bedew’d with blood. |
That Angel best can plead with Him for all |
Tormented souls, the dying and the dead. |
Angel of the Agony |
Jesu! by that shuddering dread which fell on Thee; |
Jesu! by that cold dismay which sicken’d Thee; |
Jesu! by that pang of heart which thrill’d in Thee; |
Jesu! by that mount of sins which crippled Thee; |
Jesu! by that sense of guilt which stifled Thee; |
Jesu! by that innocence which girdled Thee; |
Jesu! by that sanctity which reign’d in Thee; |
Jesu! by that Godhead which was one with Thee; |
Jesu! spare these souls which are so dear to Thee; |
Souls, who in prison, calm and patient, wait for |
Thee; {366} |
Hasten, Lord, their hour, and bid them come to |
Thee, |
To that glorious Home, where they shall ever gaze |
on Thee. |
Soul |
I go before my Judge. Ah! …. |
Angel |
…. Praise to His Name! |
The eager spirit has darted from my hold, |
And, with the intemperate energy of love, |
Flies to the dear feet of Emmanuel; |
But, ere it reach them, the keen sanctity, |
Which with its effluence, like a glory, clothes |
And circles round the Crucified, has seized, |
And scorch’d, and shrivell’d it; and now it lies |
Passive and still before the awful Throne. |
O happy, suffering soul! for it is safe, |
Consumed, yet quicken’d, by the glance of God. |
Soul |
Take me away, and in the lowest deep |
There let me be, {367} |
And there in hope the lone night-watches keep, |
Told out for me. |
There, motionless and happy in my pain, |
Lone, not forlorn,— |
There will I sing my sad perpetual strain, |
Until the morn. |
There will I sing, and soothe my stricken breast, |
Which ne’er can cease |
To throb, and pine, and languish, till possest |
Of its Sole Peace. |
There will I sing my absent Lord and Love:— |
Take me away, |
That sooner I may rise, and go above, |
And see Him in the truth of everlasting day. |
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Now let the golden prison ope its gates, |
Making sweet music, as each fold revolves |
Upon its ready hinge. And ye, great powers, |
Angels of Purgatory, receive from me |
My charge, a precious soul, until the day, |
When, from all bond and forfeiture released, |
I shall reclaim it for the courts of light. {368} |
Souls in Purgatory |
1. Lord, Thou hast been our refuge: in every |
generation; |
2. Before the hills were born, and the world was: |
from age to age Thou art God. |
3. Bring us not, Lord, very low: for Thou hast said, |
Come back again, ye sons of Adam. |
4. A thousand years before Thine eyes are but as |
yesterday: and as a watch of the night which |
is come and gone. |
5. The grass springs up in the morning: at evening |
tide it shrivels up and dies. |
6. So we fail in Thine anger: and in Thy wrath are |
we troubled. |
7. Thou hast set our sins in Thy sight: and our |
round of days in the light of Thy countenance. |
8. Come back, O Lord! how long: and be entreated |
for Thy servants. |
9. In Thy morning we shall be filled with Thy |
mercy: we shall rejoice and be in pleasure all |
our days. {369} |
10. We shall be glad according to the days of our |
humiliation: and the years in which we have |
seen evil. |
11. Look, O Lord, upon Thy servants and on Thy |
work: and direct their children. |
12. And let the beauty of the Lord our God be |
upon us: and the work of our hands, establish |
Thou it. |
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son: and to the |
Holy Ghost. |
As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall |
be: world without end. Amen. |
Angel |
Softly and gently, dearly-ransom’d soul, |
In my most loving arms I now enfold thee, |
And, o’er the penal waters, as they roll, |
I poise thee, and I lower thee, and hold thee. |
And carefully I dip thee in the lake, |
And thou, without a sob or a resistance, |
Dost through the flood thy rapid passage take, |
Sinking deep, deeper, into the dim distance. {370} |
Angels, to whom the willing task is given, |
Shall tend, and nurse, and lull thee, as thou |
liest; |
And masses on the earth, and prayers in heaven, |
Shall aid thee at the Throne of the Most |
Highest. |
Farewell, but not for ever! brother dear, |
Be brave and patient on thy bed of sorrow; |
Swiftly shall pass thy night of trial here, |
And I will come and wake thee on the morrow. |
The Oratory. January, 1865. |